I'm so stoooopid -- typical guy bullshit... I swear.
We do really dumb things don't we? Especially when it comes to women. I mean, take a girl who is completely wrong for us, throw in something about her that still draws you to her and what you got is a whole mess.
Two dumb moves took place - well, actually, not dumb... just more of "what was the point of that?" I mean, I know what the point was... but it - well.... FAWK -- I don't know. I hate technology.
OK, real quick:
First, I decide to email Mindy - DON'T ASK ME WHY! I have my made up reasons of why it was viable to do so. I simply decided to expand on my why I don't think I can win comment to her. So I did. I think I expressed myself pretty well and made sure not to make it whiny and what not. It was matter of fact and honest. I told her that a no response on a text or a call made me feel stupid or rather like a loser, so as a defense mechanism I send a half joking follow up to try and save face...pretty simple really... and like I said - honest. I don't think that can be interpreted as aggressive, but I'm not her. Anyways - that's the short version. I doubt I will hear from her (which is fine - I expressed my thoughts which was all I wanted)
Dumb move #2 wont be a big deal as long as I can be good today and tomorrow and not text Cath until our Saturday plans. Last night I was at a very cool little bar in her neighborhood, so after a few drinks I decided to shoot her a text just to let her know I'm "in yer hood" - which I was. No biggie (nothing too stoopid). NO RESPONSE. Which again is fine. I know in the exchanges we've had that she's not always responded right away, so I don't think I did anything that bad. I just was hoping I could contain myself and not text after the long text session we had on Tuesday. Oh well... like I said - not the end of the world. I didn't drunk text her or anything. I'm sure I'll hear from her and should still be on for Saturday afternoon.***
*** UPDATE: 1/13/11 - 10am -- she responded :)
It's interesting if you look at the two incidents above. Both deal with texting/reaching out and not getting a response. One bothers me and the other doesn't. It must have something to do with the history I have with each. Since there is no relationship with the second my expectations are much lower. With Mindy, we've been through stuff together and therefore there is a greater expectation.
The lesson? Manage your expectations, people. If you expect too much you will almost always be let down in some way.
As you were.
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